The more loving one - W. H. Auden

Looking up at the stars, I know quite well
That, for all they care, I can go to hell,
But on earth indifference is the least
We have to dread from man or beast.

How should we like it were stars to burn
With a passion for us we could not return?
If equal affection cannot be,
Let the more loving one be me.

Admirer as I think I am
Of stars that do not give a damn,
I cannot, now I see them, say
I missed one terribly all day.

Were all stars to disappear or die,
I should learn to look at an empty sky
And feel its total dark sublime,
Though this might take me a little time.

No way out - august..2008

Sometimes the ground you walk on disappears
it vanishes to darkness, to a distant place
it leaves you floating in unwalked roads
you're left to live a fantasy you can't replace

You float along for quite some time
you think you've got everything figured out
you think you own the void you live in
but nobody hears you and there's no way out

You're trapped in the middle of nowhere
in your own numb fantasy
trapped cause you wanted no one else
you'll never get out, you'll cease to exist.

Every day you wish, you had just dreamed it
every day you wish you weren't in that void
you can't get out, and no one gets in,
you're forever in that numbness you can't avoid

You're trapped in the middle of nowhere
in your own numb fantasy
trapped cause you wanted no one else
you'll never get out, you'll cease to exist.

Oct / 2007

In a distant place my mind decides
not to be part of this wretched plan
that consumates our souls
and wastes away our hearts..

My own

Nothing is free,
nothing is good,
nothing makes sense
when i'm not with you.

You're the air i breathe,
you're the blood in my veins,
you're what keeps me together
when i want to ease the pain.

You're my reason to live,
my voice, my heart, my song
without you i'm just an empty package,
to you alone i belong..

Obsesion

Impensable es lo mucho que te necesito...
Mirarte a los ojos y perderme, escuchar tu voz y volar...
Un simple roce de tu mano mueve todo mi ser...
Segundos se tornan días cuando no estás...

Esos últimos desesperados minutos en que intento
atarme a vos de cualquier manera para no dejarte ir...
Esas nubes, que nublan mi mente
cada vez que te siento cerca...
Tus palabras, que pocas veces susurran
lo que tanto me gusta oír,
y en ese segundo las escucho, sosteniendo el sonido
por el mayor tiempo posible, sabiendo que pronto
desaparece...

Esa adicción que tengo a tu mirada, a tus palabras, a vos...
No soportar ni un segundo lejos tuyo,
queriendo, aunque sea, tenerte a la vista...

A veces me ataca ese horror de saber
que nadie siente como yo,
que probablemente no entiendas cómo te puedo amar así...
Confortándome, al final, en que
quererte como te quiero es cosa mía,
que esta adicción me afecta sólo a mí...

Esa necesidad constante que me saca cuando no estás...
Pensarte a cada segundo voltea mis sentimientos:
Feliz por tenerte, Triste por tenerte lejos...

Algún día sentirán como yo y me entenderán...
que tu amor es lo mejor que me puede pasar,
que no hay forma más enferma de amar,
que sos mi enfermedad y mi cura,
que yo te amo hasta la locura.

Dreams

They took the pieces of their broken hearts falling
transformed therm into kisses, and the love kept flowing.

I woke from a dream last night
i wonder what it meant
i fear that dream won't come again
and makes me want to fall asleep again.

I dreamed i was walking along
a beautiful unkown paradise
and though i didn't seem to realise
i was quite alone.

I never needed anyone
to talk, to listen, to love, to miss,
i wandered around through gardens in mist
till i finally found

What i never knew i was looking for
what now i can't afford to lose
what i love most in this whole planet
finally, i found you.

Jaja, este si es distinto al resto xD

lo sentia alrededor..
lo sentia encerrandome,
lo sentia cerca..lo sentia lejos
se alejaba..pero no se iba
cerraba los ojos, mi cuerpo no tenia un limite,
solo mis ojos, debiles ojos humanos veian el limite..
pero no terminaba donde termina ante mis ojos..
yo lo sentia mas alla..
lo sentia naranja..
lo sentia flotando
lo sentia ahi en mi

Of you

you know how they say absence makes the heart grow fonder,
now i think they were both right and wrong..
Right, because every minute i spend without you, makes me think of how much i love you, how much i need you, how much i miss you..and that makes me love you even more, if that were possible..
Wrong, because absence makes me miss you so much, need you so much, it hurts..not to have you with me..it hurts, not to know what you're doing..it hurts to have you far away, when i want so much to hold you
because every kiss blows me..every touch moves my ground..every word knocks my breath away

nunca me faltes amor..
qe sin vos, no soy nada.

So lucky to have you

i find that my love for you
just gets stronger and stronger..
an inconditional love that is sure
to last and get through everything

i find myself needing you
every single moment of my day
cause when im with you
everything looks so much brighter

i find myself, thinking of you
in every breath,
in every song,
in every word

so lucky to have you
even when it's for such a short time
just lucky to have you
to let me love you so much

you make me feel like flying
you make me forget where i am
just you and me, and nothing else
is what i always want to find

Te amo

cuando llegara ese dia?
cuando te tendre conmigo?
cuando sera qe me acueste a la noche sintiendote al lado
y despertar sabiendo qe me estas abrazando?

soñe qe ese dia habia llegado
me despertaba y ahi estabas junto a mi
me mirabas con ojos dulces
me acercabas mas a ti.

un beso abria mis ojos
tus brazos me obligaban a levantarme
otro beso y te sacaba una sonrisa,
qe mejor forma de despertarme?

mas caricias, mas besos
cuando no jugando,
mas besos, mas risas,
perdernos en el tiempo.

sos lo mejor qe tengo,
lo qe mas feliz me hace
tenerte cerca mio
amarte pase lo qe pase

pero me desperte,
me faltabas ahi al lado
no senti tus besos
no senti tus manos..

esa falta qe me hacias
lleno de tinta el papel
ese amor qe siento por vos
lleno el vacio de mi ser

Solo vos

Esa espera expectante, interminable, dias que no pasan mas

saber que estoy a pocos momentos de no tenerte mas a mi lado

de no sentirte asi cerca,

decir adios, sabiendo que no nos vamos a ver en un tiempo

es la palabra que mas odio escuchar

termino cada dia sin vos, queriendo tenerte conmigo..

saber que te voy a ver me hace saltar,

me hace pasar cada segundo mas lento aun,

esperando que llegue el momento

en que nuevamente te tengo en mis brazos

me encantan tus abrazos,

prision de la que no quiero escapar nunca..

anhelo tus palabras,

que enternecen silencios..

me encantan tus manos,

que aceleran mi corazon cada vez que se acercan

no hay palabras suficientes que describan

lo que yo siento por vos

no hay letras que alcancen

para escribirte mi amor,

Te amo amor..

sos mi vida, y mas.

My love story

I stopped those tears from falling,
i couldn't cry in front of you
i wouldn't show my weakness
you knew i was hurting, you knew i was sad
and still you left me hopeless

You walked away
i watched you leave
i couldn't bear the misery
endless rives flowed from my eyes..nothing could stop them not even the sun

That dreadful day i used to joke about,
you assured it was just in my mind..
it happened my darling, just as i predicted
and you, all calm and sure destroyed me completely..

The endless rivers continued falling..
one day, another..and yet the following..
by the fourth one my eyes had no tears to cry
my heart was crushed, my soul had died

Nothing could be done..there was no way back
"let's be friends" you said..easy for you to say
inside my heart longing to kiss you agreed,
for just a little bit of you was better than have nothing left

My mind travelled and pictured
dreaded images that swam around,
that someone else would take my place,
that someone else would hold your hand

Someone else would kiss your lips
someone else would breathe your air
someone else, would be in your arms
when you're lying in your bed, when you're watching her smile..

But no one can ever see what i see when i look at you,
no one can ever feel what i feel when you touch me,
no one can ever love you the way i love you
cause no one will ever know you the way i do

But then one day
you came to me and said,
you couldn't live without me
you said you loved me

And inside my heart began to beat again
though some part of me didn't understand..
how could you love, when you hurt so much?

I swear i wanted to hate you
i swear i wanted to hit you
i wanted you to know how much you've hurt me
but no one could ever know how much i suffered..

Yet of course, i couldn't do it..
you looked at me with those eyes..
those eyes that melt my heart,
that look at me and say "i love you"

I fell in your arms once again..
helpless, cause i know
you're the one i'll ever love..
you're the only one i love..
you're my life..my soul..my heart..

My air to breathe
my song to sing
my words to write
my painting to paint..

Darkness

I used to float when I was walking
nothing troubled me on my way
everything was perfect, every single day
I lived a fairytale, beautiful dream.

It hurts to wake up now
to the cold, hard reality
where even breathing costs me
where dreams are just a cloud

And still you think you can play
you juggle with my heart and soul
you're 'bout to fall, you drop it all
my heart gets broken, my soul thrown away.

Another day in my own dark parade
struggling to continue, to start something new.

Felicidad Flotante

Es una felicidad más allá
nace y termina en vos
nace y termina en mí
en vos y en mi

Sube alto, alto, allá arriba
sobre nubes algodonadas que la hacen saltar
y salto, floto, sigo flotando
tan bien me hacés

Me raptó esa felicidad compartida
tengo felicidad flotante
la compartimos? espero..
espero que sí.

Pero lejos, lejos estás de repente
las nubes se llenan de agua
y me resbalo, me inundo, me ahogo, caigo
caigo y sigo cayendo..sin vos

Te espero,
espero mientras caigo que me atajes
así no encuentro un final todavía
te espero.. y llegas, llegas para mí

no me dejas caer, me atrapas,
me cuidaste, gracias, te amo.

Prision

huir, quiero escapar...de todo
siento rejas que me encierran, siempre
veo todo a través de esos pequeños cuadradiitos
que dejan escapar mi vista hacia eso que no logro alcanzar
he intentado escapar, trepar esas paredes
pero parecen crecer mas y mas mientras subo
debe haber una forma
tengo que escapar
o terminare consumida en esta celda
escapar... ¡cuánto deseo escapar!
tengo que encontrar la manera
acaso las paredes bajaran solas? lo dudo,
nada las hace bajar
tengo que trepar... construire una escalera que me libere
que me lleve mas allá, que me deje vivir.

By my side

thank god i have you by my side..

to care for me when i feel lonely,
to think of me when i feel sad,
to stay with me when the rain falls down
to catch me before i hit the ground

your words, my best medicine when i'm broken
your arms, my home when i feel like giving up
your eyes, the sea i wish to dive in every day
your lips, the ones i long to kiss every day

you're everything i've ever dreamed of
you're everything i've ever wanted
you're everything i have
everything i care for
everything i love
everything.

Me & You

you are my every dream
you are my only hope
you are the only one i need
with you i never feel alone
we share our darkest secret
we share the great ones too
i feel i know you since forever
and forever we shall be, me and you

I found you

you caught me unprepared
you came as so comes rain
it took me time to realize
you've been there every day

since i met you
you've never left my side
you've been through good times and bad
during day or during night

and now
you're close to me
closer than ever before
we'll stay like this forever
i hope that this goes on

because
you are me
and i am you
we are one
we've known this since forever
and now i know you'll never
leave my side

new love
i've found you
i'm sorry it took so long
but love is friendship on fire
or so i was told

so look at us now
friends since the day we met
best friends till the end
and we're even more
we are lovers now

so hear me
for i talk just for you
i just wanna let you know
i love you
each day i love you more

Historia de una nube

Los días empezaron con sol
claros, hermosos, días que prometen felicidad
desde lejos..una nube
nada amenazador de tormenta, solo una nube..
blanca, solitaria..quería alguien con quien jugar..
Se acerco al sol buscando compañía
la rechazó por ser El Sol..
el señor sol..tan superior..dueño del día..
como una nube osaba interrumpir su luz?
como habría de tapar su brillo?
no.
jamás
la nube, triste..se fue..sola
luego de un tiempo el sol, cansado, se decidió a descansar
dejó a la más hermosa
la luna..que tome una vez mas la posesión de su universo
ese universo nocturno del que ella es dueña
ella..tan fuera de lo normal..
ella..mas allá de todo lo terrenal..
tan celestial, ella..
esa extraña presencia que de ella emana..
que llena tanto.
La nube volvió
para encontrar refugio en ella..
ella que jugó y la hizo sentir importante..
una nube excepcional!
tan especial la nube..
sentía por fin, que alguien la quería como ella era..
¡que puede ser el sol comparado con la luna?!
que es dueña de la noche y de tanto mas
de esos momentos que uno siempre esta esperando..esos caminos solo habitables bajo su luz
donde en las oscuridades uno se pierde y no quiere volverse a encontrar
desaparecer..tan solo esos momentos desaparecer.

Jorge Luis Borges - Aprender

Después de un tiempo
uno aprende la sutil diferencia
entre sostener una mano
y encadenar un alma

y uno aprende...
que el amor no significa recostarse,
y una compañía no significa seguridad.

Y uno empieza a aprender...
que los besos no son contratos
y los regalos no son promesas
y uno empieza a aceptar sus derrotas
con la cabeza alta y los ojos abiertos,
y uno empieza a construir
todos sus caminos en el hoy,
porque el terreno de mañana
es demasiado inseguro para planes...
Y los futuros tienen una forma de caerse en la mitad...

Y después de un tiempo
uno aprende que, si es demasiado,
hasta el calorcito del sol quema.
Así que planta su propio jardín
y decora su propia alma,
en lugar de esperar a que alguien
le traiga flores.

Y uno aprende
que realmente puede aguantar,
que uno realmente es fuerte,
que uno realmente vale.

Y uno aprende y aprende...
Y con cada adiós uno aprende